blanc.
/Wednesday, January 30, 2008
/ 10:24 PM
hey guyz!!
wat the fuck my aunty...make me angry siak..go better to do..she call me ask me dun go.the teacher say next week..wat the hell.fine arh!!irrating siak..watever arh..go sleep mpre better.tml is my big to skewl.my class test.shit siak..hadi,i just want to tell im sorry for everything k.hope u forgive me.i did wrong on u.just want ur forgive to me.wish u can call me back thats all..love u muachx...
// 8:33 PM
hey guyz...
taday i feel okie2 lah..hhahaha..actuali i when outing to go ite simei.i dunno about GPA..dunno wat arh.but i could not me my fwenz.after finish the talk.then i when to meet my lovely cousin wawan.hahahaha..he really suck arh.but i find him he sumtime sweet person that i really like of him.so we when eat at long john..then talk to me never mit hadi.so i yeah..i will mit him.wan said so long never meet.so wan call him to come down.but i could not heard his voice.so i just keep quiet.after eat.wan ask me wheather me want mit hadi or go hm.so i said i want mit hadi.i when off .mit hadi.i kept msg him alot.but he never went down.i waited very long.then i msg his mum for help.after that he msg me to go home.but i say i dun want.i want mit him for while.i try my best to mit.actuali at 10plus im gg of to singapore.gg to my coutry for sch.cos my aunty called me say that the teacher of that sch want mit me.so cant for tml..wish me all the best.to stay there..i will gg miss my friend all..love ya u guys...
I HATE THAT GUY BUSTERD ME ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!
love u hadi..
/Tuesday, January 29, 2008
/ 9:19 PM
hey u guys...
now i feel bored..got not things to do.in the morning..i waited for hadi.cos i really miss him.by the way..he injured hiself.so i get worried about him.after that i went back to sch...then go for my studies.then on the way to school.i feel really miss him so much.cos i cant bear leave without him seh.wish i could take him back as my guy.but cant.so now im think of him...arh!!!!feel want him beside me all the time..
haiz..time dier tkder rase rindu giler..
time dier ader..aku pulak mcm sial dgn dier.allah...
mcmmane seh...kadang2 pun pelik giler.sygkan hadi tapi
buat perangai.wish i could not do that again on him
seriously aku syg sgt dgn dier seh...
love u so much hadi...
/Monday, January 28, 2008
/ 6:22 PM
today all suck.mepek banyak...aku asyik dgn budak ite aku.lepak.skg nie.org ckp aku nie bagos belajar banyak.padahal2..mepek jer..dorg tu..time balek pula tu..aku kene tgl dgn budak aku..siolnye dorg..nnti..aku rembang jugak bsk mcm fhm..haiz..on the way alek..si giler msg aku..(hadi)then aku mcm dah tk leh tahan perangai...feel like going far away from somone that i love.betul tk kalau org tu dah tk syg jgn buat tunggu2 lagi..betul tk org ckp ape nie?so right now it time for me to begin anew life...really anew life...hope i dun remenber the pas we had.by the way..another 4days is my bedae.wish i got psp..wow!!!i really want it seh...k lah...
/Wednesday, January 23, 2008
/ 9:55 PM
today.i was really late for skewl.but not cos my fwenz waiting for me n other to come.i tot late siak..so we did go for drawing class then went off to eat.this edoit came to me say hi..huh..he think wat.so i just ingore him.so wat he big isnt..hahahaa...nuts...so i went off to eat.then come back for studies again.on the way..we talking mepek..betul2nye mepek giler.after that got stupid lesson..verything must check about skewl atitre..fuck u lah teacher..such bullshit mdm..hahhaha...so got fav teacher lesson..then today was realy early for skewl siak..i really hate it.then wait for my ayah to fetch me..then follow him to his practice badmiton.after that..i when hm.take thing..then balek rumah him..haahaha..this alisyah were really happy talk to hadi.i think he miss him arh..hahaha...kk..gtg..nid sleep...my ayah will scold me seh..
mauch!!!
still love my syg...mauchx
/Sunday, January 20, 2008
/ 10:46 AM
hey behs n babes...yesterdae i had agreat time with my friend.i keep laughing with my friend.he make stupid face on me.talk..hahha...then go home around at 10plus reach home.then wait for hadi call me.but cant.i when for a drink.heineiken alot of can.i think hadi call me.i was really shock talk to him also like giler alreadi.but i think i bual merepek then he put the called arh.then i went to toilet wsh my face.start to msg that im sorry..dunno wat i say to him.forget arh..then he called me back.then we were talking about his ns everything.i cant do anything cos his life n his jobs.but i can just surppost him from behind.by the way..i miss u so much beh...hahaha.kk..gtg..for my softvball trainning arh...bubye...
/Saturday, January 19, 2008
/ 11:15 AM
hi behs n babes...
today i feel rilex.cos i dun want go out.im tired about yesterdae.n tomorrow got softball trainning seh.about yesterdae moring i wake at 6plus.then went out to school.after school,me,idah n sofia..went to eat.but zul n hasif come wanted to join with us.we did say okie.we were laughing like hell.talking about the school n everything in the class.we went off around 2plus.so i went meet hadi.i follow him to the jobs fairs arh.then we were talking about his life.i say to him try forcus in one things.then start a new life.so we went sit forwhile.thinking about wat he want to enjoy.after that we went somewhre.we were happily spent time,of sudden he qurral with for nuhting seh..so we went off the place.then i go home.he really left me alone behind.so i just walk n i dun want distured him.im scared he might qurral with me again.when i was him on the platform,i straight when there.wanted to shake hand but he dun want.so i just leave him alone.then i took train.after that ir each home.then i listern my mp3 all the way to my bed.i realise hadi keep calling me.but i just ingore him.i really cant stand the way he is.so i just cover my pillow then i sleep.i dun want ans his call n sms not for this moment n tml n tml.im sorry.cos i just left really angry with u.k lah..gtg..i want have therpy..hahaha...
bubye..lurp ya...mauchx!!!!
/Wednesday, January 16, 2008
/ 9:44 PM
hey behs n babes...
today ,i was really boring.cos nuthing to do in skewl.keep distured people .somehow i just broke up with hadi.this last.but i dunno.see how if jodoh tk kemane.so stupid of me still can ask can i have ur kiss.hahha..rindu jap diernye cute of me.dunno why.seem that when he walk away from thier side.i look back and saif he only my friend now.i close my eyes saygubye my sweetheart then begin new caphter of him.wish i can cope.oh ya that for hadi.i will him not matter how.hehehehe...to bet...
so in skewl just now.wat the hell..my class got fight.by the way im vice-chairperson.not again since 2year..think so.can remember seh..hahaha.wat liao.all my classmate were really scared.wooo!!!nvm..just forget it.i kene marah with the teach cos not stop it of the stories.stupid hahaha...cos about this marc..was piss off with nisa..haahaha..cant believe by the way..nvm..i still dun care..hahha..behs u noe me.still dun care..hahahha...
kk gtg...so tired..
/Tuesday, January 15, 2008
/ 7:22 AM
today morning i just wake up.i feel like having stress with hadi.i could say anything n started cry.i wish very morning will be fine.i dun seem that he love me or not.couse he been trying to avoid me of nuthing.dunno why.i willmake sure inside the class i will paitent more.hope so.but i could comfort..really comfort.but i noe right now is been hard for me to hav hadi right.fuck yesterdae i got talk with my parent about gg to indon.i dun want go.then this hadi.really make me feel suck n terrible.i cant say here.sorry.now im really stress to go to skewl wish i can be alone no bf.but i love him so much.why he nid to this to me.by the way,if really want me to force in my studies \oKies.let be..hey behs n babes..did i do correctly for this.i noe my heart so pain.for him.but i could take it.i try my best to tell him that i was really love him so much.talk things out between he n me.but i cant.he keep put down the call.i think he got u new gal?do u think???I gotta say what's in my mindSomething about usDoesn't seem right these daysLife keeps getting in the wayWhenever we try, somehow the planIs always rearrangedIt's so hard to sayBut I've gotta do what's best for meYou'll be ok..I've go to move on and be who I amI just don't belong hereI hope you understandWe might find our place in thisWorld somedayBut at least for nowI gotta go my own awayDon't wanna leave it all behindBut I get my hopes upAnd I watch them fall everytime Another colour turns to greyAnd it's just too hard to watch it allSlowly fade awayI'm leaving today 'cause I've Gotta do what's best for meYou'll be ok..I've got to move on and be who I amI just don't belong hereI hope you understandWe might find our place in thisWorld somedayBut at least for nowI gotta go my own away
/Sunday, January 13, 2008
/ 10:11 PM
hey behs n babes...i was really sad.cos yesterday i had fun with my syg.then of sudden today..i was really sad n crying.someone who cheer up me is wahidah.who been beside me.i hope we had really goodfriend.just now i called my syg.cos i really miss him so much.we having talk about meet each other.but nah..he said he wont meet me for one month but i dun care.so i said if got free time i will meet u just for awhile.he said no nid to meet lah.wat lah.so i really fate up.so i just pun the call.i call back to say sorry but i could say it.wat i want is he say sorry to me.but nah..i knew it.wat he done is to much.just wish we can just be like last.i noe i been with him very long time.he say expect me to do well in ite.studies hard.yeah i will do for u..but now i dunno he still want me as his gal or not.just wanna say sorry wat i done to u.u now i call him.but he was okie.but i could stand it when he say late2 call me.wat the hell..just forget it arh about him..bsk dah skolah.leceh siol.mcm nk tk nk pegi seh.feel like cabot.but cant.arh..kowg tahua arh..aku tk leh buat hal lagi.kalau aku buat hal..mampos kecok siol.kene mati2 seh dgn parent aku.dah kene margine pat indon.benci siol.dah tk dapt jumpe member2 aku pat singapore.kecok siol..dah lah.gua mahu tido arh.gua tk leh angkat gua ngntok sih.
gudnyte switdream..muach behs n babes...
/Thursday, January 10, 2008
/ 7:18 PM
today..i was really tired..i dunno why.wat happen actuali.. is today we meet the whole geng of my classmate.they were really cool.atiqah was really cute when i make her laugh.umi was really keep laughing of me cos i keep joking with all my fwenz.wahidah was really into me as close friend.hahaha..i dunno...mas n fizah was really laugh on me cos u noe im the joke with the guy..they keep laughing like hell.i dunno why..when the break time we whole classmate when eat together with each other.i was having fun with my news fwenz.by the way..i got crush with this guy.but somehow i nver get him.cos he was really having problem but i can help him.huh..hmm..here im gg to tell the stories about the crush with him.first i meet him at interview.he smile on me.i smile back cos it seem really nice person huh...then i didnt noe that he my another friend of me..so i was really shy that time.seem that he keep looking on me.hahaha..i just dunno.we were sitting down having talk every time..until yesterday.we share our stories.we keep distured izat..little miss figer of him.i really laugh like hell.so just now i waited him.then when off to the with him.saiful n izat.so i went off with other.im walking beside me.i was really scred to tell him.he ask wat i want to tell him.he say that my face look pale.so i did say..nuthing.actuali i was scared.but i could say anything...i ask his phone to tell him that i want lend his phone for awhile.then i type of that i got crush with him.i pass back..i when with saiful.i told saiful about it.saiful advice me alot..then i cry.i just dunno why.so when reach mrt.he shake hand with everybody but me was not.i was really upset about it..start crying..just dunno why.saiful ask me to follow him back.to the bus..so did.i was talk normally with him.but i cry again.he tell me the reason about his feeling n some problem.so i did heard about it.so when we at the busstop.he was saying im not recjecting u right..then i say i dunno..i was speachless..then he went off..then i took my bus.when inside the bus i was really thinking of him.i duno why..i rach home.then eat some biskut.so now im really sleepy like hell..
please dun tell me mom u want to tell all my cousin i from ite lah..bullshit..i really hate my famliy n cousin.all bullshit.hate it when it start gg to be worse ewver..gg soon..ever!!!!!
gudnyte everyone..mauch..love ya..
/Tuesday, January 8, 2008
/ 10:38 PM
today my 2nd day of school at ite.it was really fun arh..but i dunno why all the second year pupils look at us.like we do something wrong..by the way...i had great friend.they really nice friends.but tomarrow im going talk to them n asking for number everywhre.hahaha..dun think that im like asking for begget for money.hahaha..hey u noe wat.i got crush with someone.he look cute but nah..i got bf by the way.see how if i can get him or not hahaha..just kidding by the way...hahaha..so now i was really stress about the school cause is more into hardcore drawing siol..hahha..but i can do it.my fav siol..i love it babe..to all the readers please share how ur first time school ite or somewhre schooling.yeah yeah...little miss finger babe!!!!
/Sunday, January 6, 2008
/ 10:02 PM
hey you guyz..i dun seem having a bf right now.cos i duno why.actually ya still got.but seem like i dun have any bf.i wonder why hadi make to me like this.outside of my heart.i feel like breaking up but inside i really want him.but i dunno why.i try my best to forget him.just for ONE DAY.but i cant,i think take time.im kinda stupid girl.never listern to him all the time.thats why we always fight.which i can return back to the future.day n night i kept think of him.for many days i never eat n trying to get a clue n idea so that we wont fight again n again.but i noe i really miss him.i just wish like last time having t0gether,have fun..but i could not forget the past we had.really meaningful to me.i still sleep with his jacket.i really miss so much.but somehow i dunno wheather he still love me or just want durm me at one side..i sway to god that i really love hadi so much.i could bear if he leave me alone.i just want him.love him
kiss him
hug him
hope u read n change ur mind.
scared n pain... // 4:54 PM
i just come back from hospital.i have sumthing is private cant tell..sorry you guys.when i was in bed i dream sumthing that really make me scared.about someone who want take my life.that worse one.now im sitting at munirah place.i canr bear for the pain.is really pain n worse.couse she been with all the time.thank you nirah.i appreciate you babe.now i was having my rest.but hope i will be okie.couse tomarrow im gg for my ite.wow!first day tml im kinda of scared to go to sch.hahahaha...i feel like having new tml.hope i get new friends..great friend.hahahha...hadi.i dun want u get wrong from me.couse wat i noe right now,i still love u so much.i been so much with me.but somehow i nid to change.now im waiting for the bill hospital.ltr im gg back alone..so really make feel the pain..worse..
hey baby love you so much...syghadi /Saturday, January 5, 2008
/ 11:30 PM
u been my heart..loving each other.i really love you so much.i cant bear when u are gone.i will cry like hell gg down..toward in my heart.now i was really in love with u back when u wear some t-shirt that i like.ewww...feel down..hahaha..but u really my sweetheart.my lovely syg..i like the way u smile on me n kiss me.while u beside me.oh my syg.i love u so much...here for you..i dont want hurt u anymore cos i feel terrible for u.i love the way u sweetz talk to me...baby i love you so much....