/Sunday, July 20, 2008 / 9:40 PM

for almost 3year

until today i never imagine hadi is my bf. it feels so right to be here with him.for the first time, feel so lover.he's the first in everything. me! the first person that ever cried cause scared of losing him.can say that im lucky to have hadi.Im first that i really worry about his health.he been working all they long to surport his family.im really proud of him.

BY THE WAY

HADI

thankz for been there by my side

thankz for loving me as much as i can

thankz for trust me everthing wat i do

thankz for all ur helps

i really appreciate everything.

i regret begging you for all these days.i scold you and alot of nonsence.

even if foolish things that happen to me or third party..

how serious the arguement we had.

you will always be the one that i love no matter what.

cause you're that first real boyfriend that i ever gotten.

and i dont ever want to lose a boyfriend like you.

u really meant to me so much.

you are my best buddies,secret-keeper n my lover,my everything.

without you, i wouldnt be the person im today.and i cant live without you around.

and i love you so so so so much.

please hold on to me no matter what.

and dont let go, hadi.

cause i will always need you in my life.

gimme one month to settle it out.i think to all my problem

couse i dont wanna get marry wif you in satution like this.

is getting horrible.i dont like it.i wish to be like other couple no fight,

just happy ending.i know its hard for u to accept me back n "me too".

i wish is all new.new life new you

and want to meet you again.

went the age of 20plus.i guess so.

Im guess is all my fault to let you meant to me.

im really sorry.please forgive me wat i had done on you..

tears you shared.

shivers i felt.

searching for hope.

im sorry.

this decision is hard.

some part of me,

moving on is not what i wanted.but is you

but i have to do what i must do.just hope miracle would happen,hadi

our love end here..

gudbye hadi..i waiting for you...